I can honestly give myself kudos for being such an independent person.
I’ve frequently talked about how 2013 wasn’t the best year. Nor was it easy… I was stressed more than I ever have been in a whileee. But if there’s anything that 2013 taught me.. It’s that no matter how many times you rely on others and no matter how much you hope that they’ll be there for you.. Some people just do not care. Truth is, you cannot always expect them to reciprocate the same understanding back to you.
That was my issue last year.. I wanted people to be there for me. Such as… Doing favours without telling me, keeping me company, being that friend that I could vent to.. I just wanted the people who I thought were “there” for me to actually “be there” for me. I would get angry and upset at everyone because I felt I was being taken advantage of. Yet despite all of that/everything else.. I came to realize that at the end of the day, all you really got, is yourself.. and you have to cherish that.
For as long as I can remember.. I have always been a one-woman team. When I was a baby, I had no family members who were close to my age(disregarding my little sister but … you know what I mean). I always had to find ways to entertain myself and keep myself occupied. That continued all the way till I was in elementary school. I remember not a lot of the other kids would play with me. 4-year old me didn’t know if it was because I was shy or if the kids didn’t like me. Either way I would stand my ground and find ways to entertain myself like play with the blocks or read the books in the corner. LOL, sad life.. but I still kept going.
As the years went by, I would have plenty of various moments when I found myself alone or simply taking care of MYSELF. Whether it was because I was feeling left out.. or if I was going through a break up.. or if I was doing an assignment/task.. I would do it solo-dolo. I literally trained myself how to become more independent, more stronger, more happier and most of all, how to love ME.
For the previous 4 years, I was single. I didn’t date anyyybody. I had guy friends yes, but nothing more than that. There were a few ones.. but the farthest we would go would only go till texting and talking. Nothing more. But being single for a long period of time really contributed to me learning more about myself. Especially also being one of the only single people in a group of friends filled with 3+ years of relationships.. You gotta learn some sorta tolerance. I learned a lot about how to be a friend more than anything. Till this day I still cherish all my loved ones to the moon and back. I’d do anything for them.
But I think what really gets me the most is how far I’ve gone within the past few years. I use to think that being alone and not having anyone there for you, you were the saddest person in the world. Today, I beg to differ. I look back at my short life so far, and I’m very proud. I’m happy that I’ve gained an “independent” mindset. I know now that not everything in life is forever. Most are temporary (yet there are also very rare permanent ones of course !) Always make time for you, teach yourself new things, do new things, continue doing things that make you feel like you have a purpose. Last of all ? I’ve learned that; there is only one person in charge of your happiness, and that’s YOU ! Remember this. You’re the singer. Everything else is background music. As long as you keep the song in tune, then everything else will fall into place. Never ever give up.
ok so imma come out and say this real short and quick
if u like the way someone writes tell them or if you like the way someone looks, talks, tell. them. b.c i can assure you no matter what number of followers they have they will always be astounded that someone actually likes something they do and its nice to get a little appreciation once in a while.
if i had a dollar for every time an adult asked me about college then i’d have enough money to pay for college
Work like you don’t need money, love like you’ve never been hurt, and dance like no one’s watching. -Unknown
do you ever go through those phases where you just don’t feel like talking to anyone for a few days and it’s not because you’re mad or anything you just don’t feel like talking???
literally this is me
"Hi. I’m Ted Mosby. In exactly forty-five days from now, you and I are gonna meet. And we’re gonna fall in love. And we’re gonna get married, and… we’re gonna have two kids. And we’re gonna love them and each other so much. All of that is forty-five days away. But I’m here now, I guess, because I want those extra forty-five days. With you, I want each one of them. […] Because… I love you. I’m always gonna love you. ‘Til the end of my days, and beyond.”